Sickparanoia

They push us further
Away from this
Far away from reason
This have got to end

They tire our hearts
Bending us as hard as they can
We will survive
As long as we stand together

This darkest moment
The light deprives the sun
Their fangs will shatter
In the end we are the ones who’ll be left strong

They tire our hearts
Bending us as hard as they can
We will survive
As long as we stand together

Strike us with everything you’ve got
Strip us of everything we hold

So what’s the point in all of this?
When you will never change
The days have pass, The weather’s changed
Should I be sorry? Could I be sorry?

I did it all, all for you
Hoping you would see
Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched
Are we ready? Are we ready?

But you, you think about yourself
Only bu yourself
But what about.. .

Un-lonely nights
Romantic moments
The love, the love
What about them?
Throw it all away

You know me well, You know it’s wrong
Then what is it you feel?
You hide behind those perfect smiles
It won’t fool me, cause you already did

I did it all, all for you
Hoping you could see
Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched
Are we ready? Are we ready?

But you, you think about yourself
Only but yourself
But what about.. .

Un-lonely nights
Romantic moments
The love, the love
What about them?
Throw it all away

The perfect dates
The sweetest kisses
The love, the love
What about them?
Throw it all away

So what’s the point in all of this?
When you will never change
The days have pass, The weather’s changed
Should I be sorry? Should I be sorry?

I’m missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we’d have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home

[1.]
I’m cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you’re not alone, and you’re not discreet
Make sure I know who’s taking you home.

I’m reading your note over again
There’s not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."

[2.]
Well As for now I’m gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you’re making out
But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere with anyone
Making out.

I’m missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you’re as happy as you ‘re pretending.

[1.]
I am alone
In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home

I’m missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we’d have speak, and
This bottle of beast is taking me home.

[2.]

Your hair, it’s everywhere.
Screaming infidelities
And taking its wear.
[Repeat Four times]

broken hopes falling away
don’t you have something to say?
does it make you sleep?
emptiness of words that you’ve said

scars in my heart that you left now
i’m close to dying
everything’s failing with thoughts of you
now i’m down without knowing what’s true
with the way you look at someone else

everyone’s saying just try to be strong
how i wish that im just being wrong
would you try to hear me out?
the mood of distraction’s prevailing tonight
have you seen what’s the best and what’s right?

now you’re gone and you’re on your own
the ghost of my presence is saying goodbye
and i’ll die without making things right
and you’re gone and im on my own
broken glass cut me to sleep wounds are disected so deep

i don’t want to wake up
i need this blood to warm my hands
and you don’t have to understand you just got me all wrong..

she said its over
and i don’t stand a chance
she said it honestly
i wished that she lied

her words said
it all minus me minus
the actions and the understanding
she will never do
i never take advantage

and i don’t have the guts
she dropped me out
and shes leaving me
its the last time

did i pushed too hard?
you didn’t mean to make me cry
but thats okay who’s wrong?
and understanding you’ll never understand

what you think
and what i feel doesn’t make any sense

i understand what you’re trying to say
no need to say it i am leaving
but don’t walk away
just stay right there i’ll fall.
and i’ll just look at you

i’ll just look at you
i don’t know why i always feel like this
it’s hard to breathe when you’re around
your big blue eyes are drowning me to sleep
the space is tearing me i’ll stay,

please stay words are not important
smiles are all i need from you the yearning,
it’s getting stronger im dumb.
i hope you like me too
you’re two tables away you could see me mezmerised
i want to talk to you but im so scared
before i never cared,

infatuation’s never there
but now it’s killing me
i really hate myself

unexplained sight
whenever you’re around
this unfulfilled adjacent
of moment comes around

impulsive scene shivers
over and over again

i wonder if i could completely present myself to you
i dont have any brilliant words to say anyway

and affirmation
denies everything i need to say
take back everything
like nothing’s left for me

why cant you feel
the way i’m feeling now?

could you even pretend that you want me?

So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I’m far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me I…

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I’m losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn’t even scream fuck me, I..

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got

And it’s all that I’ve got
Yeah, it’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got!

So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn’t even scream fuck me

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got

And it’s all that I’ve got
Yeah, it’s all that I’ve got

Bakit ba?

Nag aaliw sa usok at beer lang ang kasama
Mas ok pang laging ganito nalilimutan ka
Hindi ko malaman sayo kung ano ang drama mo
Bakit lagi mo na lang sinasaktan ang puso ko
Tandang-tanda ko pa nung tayo`y namamasyal
Napasulyap lang sa iba bigla mo na akong sinampal
At sa kaseselos mo ay lalong minahal kita
Subalit nasaan ka na sumama sa iba

Chorus:
Bakit, bakit ba iniwan mong nag-iisa
Bakit, bakit ba saakin ba`y nagsawa na
Sinusunod naman kita
Kahit ano kinakaya
Wala paring kwenta
Bakit ba?

Ano ba ang nakita mo at pinagpalit mo ko?
Nakasisiguro ka ba ngayon sa bago mo
Sana ay mahalin ka nya at huwag kang sasaktan
Kahit di` na tayo problema mo`y sabihin lang
Pilit ka mang limutin ay naghihintay parin
Nagbabakasakali na muli kang dumating
Bakit ba kay hirap ng kalagayan ko ngayon
Kaya`t saking sarili ay laging nag tatanong

i remember how can i forget
unpredictable
but no regrets
i’m drowning in endless waters
your hand is out there somewhere

but i guess it’s time
to say goodbye
please no more lies
i’ve had enough, wasted time
what i don’t have..

i wear the costume of
never ending shame
but somehow i feel okay
help me remember to forget
i want to forget
but you’re..

beautiful
and i can’t stop myself
from feeling numb
i’m here waiting for you
to break my heart
break my heart